Hello Mick,
I took a strong testosterone booster and I think I started to gyno in my nipple area you can hardly tell but I was wondering if there was anyway to reverse it or did I Just fuck myself up permanently I was wanting to try and compete one day and I don t know if I could ever fell confident enough also I am getting ready to take a legal pro-hormone I will take an estrogen blocker this time but do you think this is a bad idea.
I also wanted to respond to the tears on a keyboard that was an incredible story it left a lump in my throat the whole time I read it I have a wife and daughter how I love so much and I have been addicted to heron and got off of it and met my wife but about a year and half ago I had some teeth problems and they started prescribing pain meds.
I did not want to admit it but I have been addicted to them I have been able to keep training hard and convince myself that I don t have a problem because I was able to like I do I thought how could I be addicted and still train like that but after reading your story I realized that I have a problem I have been hiding it from my wife buying off the black market and not telling anyone feeling that alone feeling and feeling so depressed and blaming it on that fact that I felt like a fuck up.
I also wanted to take my own life and this is the reason I wanted to tell you what your story did for me. This is true just recently got a full scrip of oxycotton don t know if I spelled that write but I think you know what I am talking about I felt like I said my good byes to everyone and I had planned to take the hole bottle which was forty pills and that would of easily done the trick I researched myself I was e-mailing my best friend saying good bye when I got your e-mail with your story I opened the e-mail to see and I believe it saved my life because I spent the next hour in half reading it.
When I was done I felt like there was someone like me how felt the same things I did from there I woke my wife up and told her everything and gave her the prescription so she could flush them it has only been six days that I have been clean but I feel like I can do this that I can live with out the drugs and I have not felt like that this past year in half so I want to thank you my wife wanted me to tell you thank you and I know if my daughter could understand she would thank you just talking about this making me cry knowing how close I was to not being able to write this so from the bottom of my thank you words can not express what your story has done for me.
Thank you again
Mike.
Hi Mike,
Look mate, you have not to worry about the gyno in fact I would say come off the gear completely for at least 3 months
maybe more and the reasons are simple.
If you were as close to suicide as you say then taking steroids is the last thing you need to be doing. You should
use ALL your energy to fight the addiction to the pain meds and everyting else. Save your strength for the bigger battle
to come.
If you need any boosting and you feeling low, just hug your child because it is her that would have suffered even more
after you had gone.
Now… stay strong and get on with being a No. 1 Dad and enjoy it.
God bless and take care.
Mick Hart.
Founder of Mick Hart Training Systems and the No Bull Collection Magazine.
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Man I’ve been in the same EXACT boat as Mike. I was addicted to Oxycontin for years due to back troubles @ first, but when the back pain was gone I kept going. I went from taking 6-7 80mg Oxycontin a day to shooting Heroin 4-5 times a day after the doctor released me. My life became pure HELL, and I was even D.O.A. ( Dead On Arrival ) @ the hospital 3 times from O.D.ing. I wound up getting on methadone, I wanted to die so bad, but I am an only child, and my Father shot himself due to Cancer ( 62 total Tumors ). I felt I couldn’t do that to my family, or my Mother. I wound up getting into mt Faith, Christianity ( Not trying to push my Faith on anyone ).
Hi Mike,
I have also been down the same path as you, at 24 I was given 3 months to live due to alcohol and drug abuse. I knew I could not keep going but also knew I could never stop and life held no meaning. To start I had some help from AA then found I could not follow their steps and the entire God becoming my higher power left me cold.
I took up training and tried to start a new life, now I am 52, I have made and lost millions, loved and lost, won titles, been in politics, done so many things. The only thing I had to do was accept complete and absolute responsibility for my own life and the lives of the people I love.
28 years have passed, I have failed many times at getting what I thought I wanted but have found I always finish up with what I need. Life is good, took me 3 years to feel that. Helping others helps me and most of all, today I look in the mirror and can like the man I see.
Forgive yourself, love your family, become the man you can only dream might exist. One day he will look back at you from the mirror. Always remember that suicide is just the cowards way out. You are not a coward. Fight for and become the father your daughter needs.
You are not alone.
John
I was in the same EXACT boat as Mike. I was addicted to Oxycontin due to back trouble @ first, but when the doctor released me I kept going. Iwent from 6-7 80mg Oxycontin a day to shootin Heroin 4-5 times a day. I even wound up at the hospital D.O.A. ( Dead On Arrival ) 3 times due to O.D.ing. My life became PURE HELL. I wanted to die so bad, but I was an only child, and my Father shot himself due to 13+ years of Cancer ( 62 total tumors in his body at death ). I felt I couldn’t do that to my family, or my Mother. I got on Methadone, wich was 10x’s worse than Heroin. I was LOST and felt hopeless. Well I started practicing my Faith, Christianity ( Not trying to push my Faith on anyone ), and did well for about 2 years. I fell back into my hellish world, because of dental problems ( Pain Meds. ) which lead me right back to where I left off. I finially found a doctor that put me on a Med. called SUBOXONE ( a mild opiate/ opiate antagonist ), meaning a amild opiate with an opiate blocker which regulates how much opiates can bind to your opiate receptors. I can go and do Heroin, but won’t feel a thing, and at the same time my opiate receptors are healing. It was a GOD send! I’ve been CLEAN now going on 8 years. They give you this Med. 48 hrs. after last using an opiate, and it takes away ALL withdrawal symptoms immediately ( Even from a hefty dose of Methadone ), and removes ALL cravings. I now stay busy working out, building my body, and LIVING LIFE! I just wanted to write this in GREAT HOPES that in some way it might HELP out MIKE. My prayers are with you, and your family Mike, and never give up. All things are possible! Sincerely, Bruce! P.S.- ( Mick, could you PLEASE relay this to Mike? THANK YOU! )
thank you very good and right to the point no bullshit.
Hi there
Wow. I want to confirm what John said – You’re not alone. I was a severe crystal meth addict for 2 years. I’m clean now for nearly 3. Now I’m into training and my body is the best it’s been my whole life. I’m 27. Also reading Mick’s “tears” made me realize this – I’m not alone. We must all just be strong, and we can all beat it and STAY strong.
My spirit is with everyone who has had to battle drug addiction and ill health. Our spirits are together, guys. Let it be your guiding lights!! Peace and love to u all.
Hi I too have delt with severe drug addiction which has me in a rehab facility as we speak. The good thing is that I have done a 90 day program and I feel the best that I have felt in years. I own a health club back home in Alabama and I am very anxious to get back to my life there. Bodybuilding has always been my saviour. It was when I had to have shoulder surgery that I got into the world of pain meds and cocaine. But now I am in a much better place mentally and physically and I am ready to get back to the National level where I was and move forward in my life. Stay Strong. Remember that we can’t think our way to better living, we must live our way to better thinking.